I am happy again.

One  happy settled daughter wrote this, and I’m over the moon.

 

With fire in my soul I am happy again. So long old friend darkness, My mind clear with zen.   The cages I found myself in are now open. And single handedly I am coping.   Striving, achiev…

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I am happy again.

The bubbles in my brain

With fire in my soul

I am happy again.

So long old friend darkness,

My mind clear with zen.

The cages I found myself in

are now open.

And single handedly

I am coping.

Striving, achieving and succeeding

to survive.

A human being by my side

does not define being alive.

True happiness lies within ones self.

Physical, mental, wellbeing & health.

This comfort zone has been extended,

From ear to ear, my smile won’t be pretended.

New bridges to cross

and new paths to travel.

Along my journey,

new friendships to unravel.

When I reach my destination,

I’ll write to let you know,

I’m happy.

and i’m settled.

and I’m glad you let me go.

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Four generations

Four generations

Glad that we were able to celebrate this day.

It’s been a long while since I came on here last, a lot has happened in that time, the biggest and best thing was the birth of our grandson, born on 13th November 2013, unlucky for some, but not us, we were so glad to be able to celebrate his birth with all of the family including my mum who has found reserves from somewhere to keep going through her battle with cancer, to be able to pass Jasper to her was something that I will hold close forever, it was like time had gone in reverse, because it felt like the time I handed her her first grandchild. Then of course we had christmas which was wondeful, we had the priveledge of having our daughter, her partner and new baby to stay for the holidays, it is such a special thing to be able to share this time, it made the fact that our youngest daughter was absent so much easier, having your children fly the nest is so hard especially at holiday times like christmas.

Confused

So sorry for not posting anything on here for a while but have had a difficult few weeks, at the end of July we broke up from school for the summer holidays,the weather was beautiful, I had lots of days out and catching up with friends to look forward to. Two days later the devastating news came, my mum was diagnosed as having terminal cancer, myeloma of the pericardium to be exact, to say that it was a blow was an understatement, after undergoing 15 months of hell, with an abdominal wound the size of my fist after bowel surgery went wrong, we were looking towards the exciting future, a grandchild for me and my husband, and great-grandchild for my parents. We are still anticipating that mum will be here to see the new arrival, but it is all tinged with sadness, sadness because the outlook is that she will not get to see the baby grow into a little person with character, I hope that he/she had some of the get up and go that mum has,the resilience and strength that has seen her overcome so many setbacks during her life. Mum was born in 1943 to an unmarried teenage mum, who didn’t have the strength to stand up and be counted as an individual, so mum was raised by her Grandparents, and lived with her aunts and uncle, the eldest of which was 17 and the youngest 6 months old, my mum was called names and basically not treated very nice but became a wonderful person who is my loving and caring mum.